Random Spewings

It's only 1:41 pm and I feel like I've done a FULL day of work...not because I've been particuarly busy but because I just didn't feel like being here anyway so, of course , the time is passing EVER so slowly! I really thought it was like 3 o'clock, but NOPE! Sheesh...oh 6pm, where are you?

So, I'm driving on 795 yesterday (headed towards Reisterstown for a tutoring session) and I'm looking around at all the other drivers. Now, I've heard those stories about people who drive on the highway and are putting on makeup and stuff like that...and I have put on lip gloss or something like that. But I was so AMAZED when I look to my right and there's a man driving and SHAVING!!! I mean, he had one of those electric (well, battery-run) shavers and was SHAVING as he drove along 795! Several questions came to mind!! 1) is this SAFE for him and for US...the other drivers on the road! 2) was he running THAT late??? Seriously, he felt that it was OK to leave the house with the thought "I can always just shave IN THE CAR?" Really? 3) isn't that NASTY? I mean, maybe he wasn't all that hairy, but still EWWW! This was just appalling to me!! Wow!

I really appreciate clever things!! And quite honestly, I especially like it when I get it and most people don't! (Hey, it's my blog so I can say what I want! I can be as honest as I want!) There's an apartment complex off Liberty Road in Randallstown that's called Shakespeare Park. I ride past it often enough but never really noticed the name of the street that it's on. Well, this morning I rode by and noticed that it's on Anne Hathaway Drive. I was thinking to myself (becuase I didn't want my brother to think I was nuts, so I didn't say it out loud) "Cool! Anne Hathaway was Shakespeare's wife. How SLICK is that?" So, I thought that was all cute and clever! But it's so funny because I can't believe I remembered that. Like, when is the last time that I even read about Shakespeare's life? The mind is so funny because I have to STRAIN my brain to think of what I wore yesterday (oh, I remember, now ) but I remembered that William S...

For those of you who read this and may not know me personally, I'm currently abstinent. (I guess that's how you say it!) Or maybe, I'm practicing abstinence. Whatever! Y'all know what I mean; I'm not presently sexually active! It's been years! I do it for many reasons and feel very proud! Yes, it can be difficult but it's a worthwhile commitment! I think the main question people ask is "Why?" Second-runner up question basically can be summed up as "how does that work?" (and THAT question comes in a VARIETY of ways!) So, today, I'm having a conversation with a co-worker who I consider a good friend. We ask each other pretty honest questions and whatever we were discussing led me to tell him about my "it's been years" thing! Well, AFTER I finally CONVINCED him that I was telling the truth, we had at least a half-hour or so conversation! And one of the most shocking things he said--because I've had this conversation wit...

I talk to myself! Ok, I do! and I feel NO shame! And yes, I answer myself! And again, NO shame felt here! None ! People say that it's OK to talk to yourself as long as you don't answer yourself. To that I say, WHATEVER!! Because I do both and I don't think it's strange at all! But I DO think I'm bananas sometimes! Why? Well, let me give the background story. Where I work, my building, we have a contract cleaning crew that cleans all day. And I have deduced that the company that has the contract must only hire people with some type of disability, and that some of them must have mental disabilities. There's a few women that, when they clean the bathroom, they carry on full conversations with themselves! Now, I, of all people, should be understanding of this situation! But, NO! Most times, I end up saying "here we go again!" Or "She's about to get started!" Now the thing that makes me obviously crazy is that I'm commenting TO MYSELF usu...

I drive my brother to work in the mornings (until he saves up for another car) and we pass Randallstown High School on the way. Well, I started looking at all the kids on the way to school. And it got me thinking...I'm at least NINE years older than the SENIORS! Sheesh! So, thinking about that made me think even harder. Now, by NO means do I think that, at 26 years old, I am old! I am just saying that time passed more QUICKLY than I realized! Therefore, here is a list I've come up with: I'm 5 years older than most COLLEGE seniors, I'm 9 years older than most HIGH SCHOOL seniors, I'm 13 years older than most EIGHTH graders, I'm 16 years older than most FIFTH graders, I'm 20 years older than most FIRST graders, and lastly I'm 22 years older than the average K-4 student! Wow! but the funny part is that I'm still only 26! So, life is good! (but it feels like I JUST learned to tie my shoes! What happened? Is this how life will be from now on? Just ZIPPING...

I was thinking recently and maybe, JUST maybe, I'm becoming more emotional and well, woman-like. See, women are generally more emotions-based and quicker to show feelings than men are. As I grew into adulthood, I was NOT known for being a "share my feelings...let's talk about it...let's all cry" kind of woman. In fact, the last time I'd cried outside of church in YEARS was probably at a funeral! In fact, I think that all of my parents (mom, dad & spouses) have all called me a "son" or referenced me as "un-emotional" at one time or another! But I realize that I've said "I'm having an emotional day" a LOT lately! In fact, I said it today (and I'm don't even have PMS) So, maybe I'm getting more in touch with my feminine side! I'm really rather excited about it...but PLEASE don't expect me to be all crying at commercials and that kind of crap! :--)

This morning I was watching Menace II Society ..and I was thinking back to how FINE I thought Kaine aka Tyrin Turner was in those days! Whoo! And everyone I know thought he was fine..and those lips, yes indeed! But, like...where is HE these days? It's funny b/c he was the main character and Larenz Tate was the "sidekick"...but look at his career compared to Tyrin's. Oh well, maybe he (Tyrin) will be in something soon! (just checked www.imdb.com and YEP, he'll be in something SOON! LOL!) I wonder if he is still fine!

Ok, so after having talked it over with my sister Tiff and my friend Aly, I have confirmed it, I will be getting married in winter! My reason for wanting to get married during one of the wintry months: so I can wear a fur muff and cape (yes, Tiff the cape is a new addition) with my dress! I thought this might be too shallow a reason to pick a season in which to get married, but they both were like WHATEVER! You can use whatever reason you want to pick the time! Mind you, I don't have a boyfriend YET...but a friend of mine told me that you should be as prepared as possible BEFORE you start "officially" planning b/c otherwise you get too stressed out! So...at least I have that detail figured out!!

Yes, ladies and gents...it IS that time again, where I 'fess up to songs that I like, but feel some kind of way about admitting that I like! 1) "SOS" by Rihanna--why so ashamed, you asked? B/c it's by RIHANNA! (who, by the way, I heard her say her name and she pronounces it as "ree-anna". Didn't know!) Um, but she's PRETTY wack so I feel kind of wack to like it! 2) "Check on It" by Beyonce--yes, Miss Overrated herself has made me a fan...of this song anyway! She's SO overrated that it's ACTUALLY sad but now when I hear this song, I actually find myself NOT turning the station. (And I have a secret crush on Slim Thug! Don't ask why, cause I don't know why!) 3) "Lean wit It, Rock wit It"--I think this one's actually ALMOST OK to like, but I still feel a little something when I do find myself in the car leaning and rocking with it!

So it's Tuesday and the day that I predicted my "gosh I feel sucky!" mood would end. WRONG!But it's ok because it's a different kind of sucky! I feel really bad because the Lord just revealed another "thing to change within myself" to me. And it's hurtful but I'll get over it and I'll be fine!! I was thinking about it and I don't really post about my spiritual side or my relationship with the Lord a lot. Hmm! What's up with that? Don't really know! Anyway, the truth can REALLY hurt...especially when it's a truth about yourself. But like my pastor always says...the truth hurts...first! then it heals!" So I know I'll be a better person because of days like today! But it still cuts like a knife! (Picture me doing the "gesture" for "cuts like a knife" Tiff! LOL!)

Today is one of those days that just kind of SUCK but I'm trying to NOT let everything get to me! And I was thinking...I'd love to have some of "platform" to tell the whole world that today sucks...and then I remembered this blog! YAY for blogging! So, it's Wednesday...which always means meetings and more meetings for my team here at work. And let's be honest, MEETINGS SUCK such BIG LEMONS! So...here's how my day has been so far. 1) Arrive at work...CAN'T find a legal parking spot so create a parking spot and hope that I don't get a ticket! 2) Come and sign in and HOPE that there's no team meeting today but that's a pointless hope 'cuz my TL like NEVER cancels the meetings! 3) I go to the meeting (after being nearly 15 minutes late to it) and it's long...but not as long as it would be if one of my co-workers weren't OUT! Thank God cause she can TALK! 4) I come back to my desk...I HATE days like today...I've gotten tired of d...

Is anyone else DEEPLY concerned with the inordinate number of songs that talk about, or seem aimed at, strippers? "I'm in love with a stripper" (or depending on where you live/what radio station you listen to "...a dancer"). I've pretty much come to realize that "Laffy Taffy" at least MENTIONS strippers. And it seems like ANY song by the Ying Yang Twins are for/about strippers and strip clubs! Why? But then again...when I think about the artists who sing/rap these songs, I THINK it may have the littlest bit to do with the fact that any "action" they might get from women may only really be from someone getting PAID to deal with them! (I hope that doesn't sound TOO mean!) But still...CHILL on the stripper songs, please !

So, there's a new show on HBO called Big Love . Now when I saw the previews for it, I must admit that I was SO confused and yet a little intrigued. I was pretty sure that I was going to watch it. Oh well, I forgot about it..until it was on when I was flipping through the channels. So, of course now I'm hooked! It's YET another one of those shows that I wonder why I watch but then it's so different from the life I lead that I MUST watch it. If you don't know what it is, it's about a guy named Bill Henrickson (played by Bill Paxton. For some reason, I always feel some kind of way about people who play characters with the same name as their real name!) Bill has three wives: wife #1 is Barb (played by Jeanne Tripplehorn). Bill and Barb have 3 children. Wife #2 is Nicki (played by Chloe Sevigny...who makes me CRINGE almost every time I see her!) Bill and Nicki have 2 boys. Wife #3 is Margene (played by Ginnifer Goodwin). Bill and Margene also have 2 boys together. In...

Ok, so yes, I will admit, I was one of the FOOLS who fell in love with the show The Flavor of Love . Why? For the same reason that I used to watch Laguna Beach: The Real O.C. Because so many times I just sit in amazement and wonder "are you serious?" about so many of the characters. Though these shows claim to be REALITY TV there are always plenty of CHARACTERS! Once again, I came to discover the show late! So I only saw it from when there were about 8 or so women. Ok, although she is completely NUTS, I really wanted New York to win. I mean, why would anyone want Hoopz to end up with Flavor Flav? Seriously? That's why I hoped last night that Hoopz aka Nikki would lose. But she didn't and of course Flav picked her. Ok and raise your hand if you were upset that he gave her GOLD FRONTS! *Tonyette raises both hands and attempts to stand on one leg in order to raise one foot, too* Sheesh! I mean, the show was very funny but at the same time a bit sad. Is this really what ...

So, I went to Vegas...and I FELL IN LOVE! It was actually kind of amazing because I didn't expect to have as much fun as I did. It was fantastic and I'm anxious to go back. I would give details but you know what they say: What happens in Vegas...

Y'all know the rest! Yes indeedy, sweetie!!! This time next week (Friday, 2/17) will be the 3rd day that I'll be in Vegas ask Sin City...but I don't wanna go over there and come back "needing to hit the altar" as my sister said. So I'll call Vegas "Place where you can go a little crazy but not necessarily sin" City! Although, I think my friend Alyson has "committed" to getting me drunk for the first time in my life! (I think I should be proud that at 26, I've never been drunk! A little tipsy maybe, "nice," sure, but never drunk! Two thumbs up to me!) I am leaving for Philly (to meet up with my newest sisters aka my friend Alyson and her 2 sisters) on Tuesday and then we're headed to Las Vegas, NV BRIGHT and early on Wednesday morning! Question to myself: Why is it that whenever I seem to go on vacation or have other things to do on my vacation, I always have to be up EARLIER than I get up for work! What's up with tha...

I think something may be a little wrong with me. I realized the other day...and it was confirmed today...that every time I say, read, sing or write the word "wink" that I feel "forced" to follow up with the action of winking as accompaniment! Like just typing this post, I had to concentrate on not doing it as I typed it! Is that crazy? Oh well...that's me! (I will come back and post more later! I realize I haven't posted anything in a coupla weeks! I'll be back in full force soon!) Until then...

Lately, I've been REALLY finding myself more attracted to guys who are cute or "have their own look" but are great people as opposed to fine guys who are just cool! Is it just me (and my sister) or is there just something so incredibly SEXY about a guy who can hold a conversation intelligently? There's something about someone who knows WORDS and uses them correctly and thinks that white t-shirts are to be worn as UNDERGARMENTS only! (well, for the most part. Nothing wrong with it, every NOW and again, as a part of the outfit!) Whoo! Give it up for the man with an education who isn't afraid to let people know that he has one! YES! And a heart for the people, a philanthropist, will just get me EVERY time! Even my latest celebrity obsessions...oops, I mean, crushes, reflect my new attitude! Is it because I'm getting older? Or is it because i'm looking for a husband now...as opposed to just a boyfriend like when I was a little younger?

So, today is a better day than yesterday, PRAISE GOD! I've come to the conclusion that on this last Friday in 2005--um, excuse me WHERE did the time go???--I'm going to decide, like I've HAD to do all year, to be happy! So, today I'm not SO BLECH! I'm pretty ok. I just came from lunch with my dad. I requested a "Dad & Tonyette" only lunch! Just because! It was good! We talked and I told him that it's all his fault that my life is so tough! LOL! Calm down! Before all you readers are like, "MY GOD, SHE DID WHAT?" I told him that I am 26 and life is tough and that he didn't tell me it would be! (I told my mother the same thing a few weeks ago!) It was nice! But I'm back here (at work, SHEESH!) trying to make this deadline for my team leader! I think I MIGHT be able to have something to give him by the end of the day! Gracious! But thank God for a job! Also, before I forget, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Wow, it's almost 2006! I can't bel...