Monday, November 22, 2010

I wanna be like Oprah...

Dear Lord,
When I "grow up" I wanna be like Oprah! I want people to hear "Tonyette" and a certain sound, or see me give a certain look or just see me coming and be so excited that they can't stand themselves because they know I'm gonna be giving "big". That's my prayer for today!

In Jesus' mighty name,

(See...I just saw the introduction to the final "Oprah's Favorite Things" episode. People in the audience saw her red dress and heard those bells and knew what it meant. There was hugging, crying, clapping, "shouting" and all kinds of things! It must be nice to be able to give that "big"!)

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Something new...

So, yeah, I'm at the point, AGAIN, where I'm ready for something new!! I have started to move my feet on a few things, though, thank I'm not just idly watching life go by (as much) anymore!! I have started the Bible study for teen girls and young women that I've been talking about for years now! I've got a website and business cards dedicated to my baking business! I'm starting to travel more again! So...things are slowly but surely getting there!! Ooh, my living room furniture will be in tomorrow! That's BIG NEWS! Once I get that all settled, it'll be time to start looking for some DIY projects! Oh and it's fall now, too, so that means deciding on my wardrobe focuses for the next few months! So...there are some new things coming! I'm looking forward to any bit of newness I can grab onto!

What are you looking forward to?!

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

Viva Las Vegas...again

I just got back from Las Vegas, NV and I must say...this was probably my very best vacation ever! I honestly cried when it was time to leave--although I'm sure a few "life ain't been no crystal stair" tears managed to slip in there! We are already throwing around dates for the next trip!! I'm seriously gonna think long and hard about moving there (again!) Did you know that there's no state tax in Nevada?!

Friday, August 13, 2010

DIY? !

I've decided that I am going to start some D.I.Y. projects. I think my recent move has sparked this interest. I'm very excited!! I'd like to either paint or stain a little table for my bedroom. I'd also like to see if I can make some pillows for both my bed and my (currently NOT purchased) love seat. I want to see if I can decorate my house myself. I think I can; I think I can!

I'm excited! I'll try to post progress! Whoo hoo!

Friday, July 16, 2010

Dancing and/as ministry

This particular post was inspired by my awesome, inspiring, beautiful friend Toya! She has a posting on her blog and I wanted to write, like, a 500-word essay but that's her blog, not I had to try to keep my comments "short"! Her post got me thinking about being a liturgical dancer, what "ministry" really means and my place in the world! This post may just be a "brain dump" so please follow along as best you can! :-)

Well, I should probably start with this: I have been a liturgical dancer for, I think, 8 years now. It all started at my former church when the director of the dance ministry asked if I wanted to join the group! At the time, it was comprised of three formally trained dancers who were svelte and, well, seemed like "dancers". I was, at the time, 250 pounds and, at 22, hadn't danced with any kind of group or "formally" since about 3rd grade. The funny thing, I'd wanted to join them for a few months by the time she asked. But I felt silly for wanting to join. I mean, how would I look in the leotards and skirts (at the time, that's what they wore) with all the "extra-ness"?? How would my hands, feet, arms & legs fare compared with their trained limbs?! But when I heard music or thought about expressing myself to God, I wanted to do it through dance! So...I asked her if she was sure?! She assured me that she seriously wanted me to join because she said she was looking for worshipers and that she'd teach the dancing part. So, I told her "yes" because I had been interested anyway! Shaking in my boots and unsure of how it'd be received, I joined the ministry! Long story short, it's one of the very best decisions I've ever made in my entire life! Not only do I believe that God gets the glory from my dancing but it also enables me to inspire people who may not have seen themselves as "dancers" before seeing me. My weight has moved up and down the scale (actually right now, I think I'm back at about 250...for those who have never had the pleasure of seeing me in person, ;-), I stand at 5'6") and there have been plus size or full-figured women who say to me "I am considering dancing now that I've seen you" or "I love to see you dance! You represent us". As much as I love the fact that God is pleased by my dancing (and the consecrated lifestyle that I believe should be lived by a liturgical dancer!), I am proud to be an inspiration to my plus size sisters and hopefully others who previously thought "there's no way I can dance"!! I also like the fact that while dancing, I get to be vulnerable in a way that I am not in my everyday life, save for a few select people! I had to learn to be open and be transparent--and for someone who doesn't like people looking at her, this proved VERY interesting for the first couple of, well, years! Right now, it'd be easier to get up and dance a selection than talk for 5 straight minutes about myself. (Even though, I'm at a place where I could do that, too, if pressed!)

There are people & churches who don't value/agree with the idea of dance as a ministry, but I try my best to advocate and change minds as much as possible. What is "ministry"? I would assume that if you asked the average person what the word means, he or she would say some variation of "service in/for/during/at a church"...and yes, this is partly true. One of the definitions (for the Hebrew word that means "ministry") IS "service in the tabernacle"...but that's only a part of it. But that same word, "ministry," also means to serve food and/or drink, like waiting on tables! The very same word means to care for the poor and to give them money. What's my point? That we, as a whole (church) world, have the idea of ministering/ministry slightly skewed or should I say we only have a piece of the puzzle! Ministry should NOT only happen inside our local churches!! Who, then, is helping the poor (in finances) and poor in mind/body/spirit? What changes are being made in our world if we are all simply ministering to one another inside the four walls?! People say that 'dance is universal' and things like that! Having been a part of dance ministries, I can say that it truly is. I've been able to "reach" people, and "be reached" by those whose language I don't speak, people with whom I have nothing (but dance and/or loving God) in common and with folks I wouldn't otherwise meet! I've effectively been ministered to, and I think effectively ministered to others, through dance on countless occasions!

Lastly I think that it's vital that we all get to a place where we realize that God created us ALL to do SOMETHING! Some of us may become famous or known worldwide as the first Black president who lets little children know that dreams can become reality or as the guy who created a computer corporation and became a billionaire who gives away more money than most people will ever earn in their lifetime. However, there are others of us will touch lives in a much quieter way, such as becoming a professional belly-dancer who inspires women to get up and dance and love themselves while doing it...or by being the best mother to her children who inspires & encourages them to become someone great or by being the best husband to his wife and therefore sets an example for other men!

My very long-winded point is that ministry is SO much more (and at the same time, so much LESS) than what people would have us to believe! So, dance, sing, serve food at a soup kitchen, go read books to a child at a library! Most importantly, just spread God's love and lift up Jesus' name!


Life changes...a lot, sometimes rapidly! It sucks so bad sometimes! God is good and I'm strong, but still, man... I feel like Monica sings, "whatever don't kill you makes you stronger, well I must be the world's strongest woman"!! Monica, girl, I hear that!! The first time I heard that song, I said "I KNOW that's right!" The word says (1 Cor. 10:13) that God will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able...and I feel like "God must trust me tons and tons!" But again, He's good and I'm strong! So there's that!
So...we'll see what prayer, faith and time will bring me as I continue to wait on God and His promises! I have no choice but to wait anyway, right?

Singing/Even Me

I haven't written in a few months so I think today I'll post a few things!
First of all, I realized that I really like to sing! Certain songs just make me wanna belt out the lyrics at the top of my lungs! Right now, I have "Even Me" by Crystal Aiken on repeat. I want to get up and sing as loud as I possibly can and probably cry and scream afterward! But, because of where I am, it's not feasible! :-(
Oh well! I'll lip-sync extra hard, then!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Missed Connections...

You KNOW you are bored as ALL HECK when you start reading the "Missed Connections" posted on Craigslist for fun! Sheesh, Tonyette...get a life! (There's nothing wedding-related to do/think about right now and I'm trying to avoid work at all costs! None of my friends seem to be in an emailing mood and the Boo hasn't responded to my most recent text, so he must be napping!)

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

The OFFICIAL countdown begins today! I have 100 days left before I get married! I'm PRETTY PUMPED about that!! Whoo hoo! One of my co-workers suggested that I blog about life after getting married. I think I may do that! Thanks for the idea, Mikey! ;-)

Whoo hoo! Let the countdown BEGIN!!

Friday, February 26, 2010


It's official, I AM ENGAGED!!! Whoo hoo hoo!! As of February 8, 2010, I am an engaged woman! The Boo proposed--amidst all the snow!! It was romantic and perfectly us!! So...I'll forever have dates for my birthday and folks can already guess who my +1 is--unless it's a ladies night out or something! I'm so excited!! I had to share!!

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

Groundhog's Day is Groundhog's day! Two questions: 1) how do we KNOW if the groundhog saw his shadow? I it actually that some PERSON sees the groundhog's shadow? 2) Whether or not Punxsutawney Phil sees his shadow, isn't spring 6 weeks away from February 2 ANYWAY?

Just wondering!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Happy New Year!!

So, it's been a few months since I last posted! That was "way" back in 2009!! Happy New Year to everyone! I'm expecting BIG things this year! I'm doing my part to make it a MUCH BETTER year than the last few (most notably, 2009!). I see people changing all around me, for the better, and it's very exciting! I'm going to (once again) try to post more in this year! I'm also going to try to NOT be a pack rat! I've noticed that, although I'm not quite at "hoarder" status, I keep a LOT of useless \stuff! What is UP wit that? Even email! I need to do better!

Here's to 2010!!