Wednesday, November 05, 2008

A CHANGE is HERE!!!

Today is November 5, 2008. As of almost 12 hours ago (I started this at 10:55am)...the 44th President of the United States of America will be former Senator Barack Obama!! Yesterday--since it was a HISTORIC moment, I want to be able to re-tell as much of it as I can--I wore a beige button down shirt and denim capris with my beige "Eskimo" boots and a black Old Navy long sleeve jacket to pick up my mother. She and I went to vote together. She had on her beige and black jacket, with black pants and white tennis shoes (sneakers for those of you who prefer that word!)

My mom was carrying a little black umbrella! I picked her up on my lunch break from work and we drove the two minute drive fron her house to the JCC on Park Heights Avenue to vote together! I was so excited that morning that I had already cried when my friend Aly texted me and said she'd voted, just after 7am. I was proud that my mom chose to go vote with me. She told me that she hadn't voted in years! She was determined yesterday, however, to make her voice heard and we went together!! I could tell she was a bit nervous because everything was so new. The last time she'd voted, you had to use paper and pencil! While we waited in the very SHORT line--our polling place has three precincts in one room but our precinct had the shortest line! Thank God for that...I WAS on lunch!--we both received our "I voted" stickers! We were proud! When we were done voting, we both kept smiling a wide "can't wipe it away" grin! I dropped her off and came back to work proud that my voice...and my mom's voice... HAD been heard! I had been praying for Senator Obama, his family and friends and even his campaign employees! I knew that this time, our country would get it RIGHT!! I literally had no doubt that he would become our very next president!!

In fact, I wasn't even keeping up with the numbers originally because I had no worries! When I got in the house, I was watching "Whose Wedding is it Anyway?". My mother called me at 11pm...and I knew what that meant! It meant that a CHANGE WAS HERE!! I answered and she said "oh my goodness! He won!" I could hear her smiling her beautiful smile through the phone! I know her "I'm so excited that I don't know whether to laugh or cry" tone and she definitely had that tone going on when she called me!! I remember thinking "he'll make a wonderful speech" but then, apparently, the peace must have really taken over! I fell asleep soon after and didn't wake up until 3am! By then, I saw that I'd had 6 text messages! I turned to one of the channels that I knew would tell me the GOOD NEWS and saw it...saw that the next President will be Barack Obama! The tears immediately started spilling from my eyes!! Lord have mercy!! A change IS here!! The excitement for me is two-fold! I am excited as a Black woman in this country! I definitely thought I'd be older than 29 when I saw the first non-White president elected! But I'm also excited because I know this is indicative of a spiritual shift that God has ordained for this time!! Never before this moment has my anticipation for great things been so paramount!! I don't know what will happen next!! But I'm thrilled about the future!

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Changes/What's Next...

I haven't blogged in a little while, so I figured now is a fine time, since it seems like I'm the only person on my entire FLOOR right now!!

Where to start...let's see...this year is 2008, a year that my pastor/church declared as the "Year of Promotion"! I think so many people got it WRONG and figured "promotion" = "more money" but it means, at least to me, so much more than that!! This year, I have accomplished a LOT and I think that I have been promoted!! To start the year off, I became a model! Yeah! (Shameless PLUG for Signature Ink Modeling Company!!) In the last 9 months, in addition to that, I have lost almost 20 lbs and about the same in inches, moved into my own apartment, enrolled in a mentoring program for those in dance ministry and gotten increased responsibilities on my job!! I have become more confident in who I am, even less worried about who doesn't like it and I'm happier than I've been in a LONG time! My joy HAS BEEN restored! A lot has changed around (and to) me recently, but I'm adjusting to it wonderfully, if I say so myself! I know that more change is on the way and I'm actually really excited about all of it!! God has been SO good this year that even in the moments that didn't feel like promotion, I didn't doubt Him! (Ok...not as MUCH as I used to...so even that is growth!!)

So, since it's only October...I anticipate even more exciting things coming my (and my family and friends') way before this year is over!! Over the next few weeks into the next month, I've got three fashion shows coming up! (Let me know if you want to attend any!! ESPECIALLY the VIth Sense: Fashion! Signature Ink's 6th anniversary show! IT WILL be hot! DON'T MISS IT!) I am going to be volunteering again for the Maryland Race for the Cure (to aid in the research for a cure for breast cancer!). I will be taking a class at work that will give me more credentials and I'm just excited!

Friday, August 15, 2008

Boot Camp Countdown

So...I've been in a 12-week weight loss boot camp (shamless plug: Reinvent U Boot Camp) and it's been about 9 or so weeks! I'm on a countdown until it's over...no, not because it's been so hard that I'm ready to quit--although, more about that later--but more because I am anxious to see what habits I have formed and what I'll take away from it! One of my main reasons for finally deciding to do the boot camp is so that I'll have healthy habits with regards to exercise and diet to follow! Now, first of all, I wasn't even planning to do the boot camp until my agent (HA! I still love saying "my agent") suggested that I do it. See, I love being full-figured. I love the shape of my body and I feel like it's "me". Who would Tonyette "be" if I were 160 lbs?! Well, the boot camp has been going very well for me, although there WERE some tough times, which surprised me. I would watch The Biggest Loser and wonder why people were crying when it came to losing weight. My thinking was "lose it or don't" but now, going through something like this, I can understand the tears! When you wanna push yourself, feel like you can't, and then someone comes along to help you out and you do whatever the task is! I have asked myself "is it worth all this?". I have had a range of emotions...even when getting compliments! People say things like "you look good" because there is a noticeable difference. I say "thank you" but I think things like "please, I looked good 30 pounds ago!" (Sidebar: I haven't lost that much weight from the boot camp alone...I had already begun to make some changes! I've lost about 30 pounds since last year!) Which makes me get upset and go "so, what, 'looking good' is equated with how thin you are?" Which, in turn, makes me not want to accept the compliment! But, I do accept the compliment because, you know what, I do look good!! And I'm not like "betraying" full-figured women everywhere by losing some pounds! (And trust me, as I quickly learned...even if I were to lose 50 more pounds...in our society...I'd still be full-figured!) So...this is my official "countdown till Boot Camp's end"...21 days and counting!!

Thursday, July 31, 2008

7 years...

and counting! So, yesterday was the 7-year anniversary of my starting to work for the Social Security Administration! Yay to me!! I can't believe it's been that long already...which means I've been out of college for 7 years, too!! (That thought made me weep, just a little bit!) It seems like yesterday when I was nervous about my mom, stepdad and brother leaving me on the 2nd floor of Plaza Hall (at UMES) wondering what to eat for dinner that first night. Now, 11 years have passed and here I am sitting and wondering where did the time go! I'm pretty proud to say, in this day and age, that I've been at my job for 7 years. So many people I know that are around my age are on their 6th job. (No diss...we all must find ourselves!!) Though, at SSA, seven years is baby stuff. Some of my co-workers have been here for 30 years or more. It still amazes me that my team leader started his career here when my mother was in her teens! But hey, it's a great employer...you get all kinds of leave options and holidays and pretty much can't get fired!! So...here's to SSA and me...a beautiful relationship (until I get my own business! Then I'm OUT!)

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Tagged

My friend Toya (The Life of a Ladybug) tagged me (weeks ago...I'm so terrible!) Here are the questions and my answers! I am always terrible about tagging people, so I won't this time! (hope it's ok that I cheated!)


1)What was I doing 10 years ago?
Around this time 10 years ago, I was just finishing up my first year of college at UMES and feeling pretty grown up...but was sad at the same time because I could NOT find a job! Boo!


2. What are 5 things on my to-do list today?
1) Go talk to one of my lil sisters

2) Get on the elliptical!

3) Try to decide what I wanna do for my birthday (in 15 days! YAY!)

4) Wash a load of clothes

5) Read some Word!


3. Snacks I enjoy (I love snacks so I'll try to keep this list small!):
1) Cheez-its

2) peanut butter & crackers

3) M & Ms

4. Places I’ve lived:
various places in the B-more metro area...and while in school, Princess Anne, MD

5. Things I’d do if I were a billionaire:
(I just went back and read over this and realized that I answered this as if I somehow became a billionaire suddenly! LOL!) Wow, a BILLIONAIRE? Ok...gotta start off the same way, T! Pay my tithes (and admittedly, the ones I owe back, too!). Give a huge offering! (STCF ALSO needs a new building, like the day before yesterday!) Then, I'd pay off all my bills. Do the same for my mom's bills. Buy my parents (all of 'em!) their dream homes. Buy myself a house and a truck. I'd keep my own car but, since it would be paid off, I'd make a few changes to it! I'd give each of my siblings and their spouses like, maybe $10 million each. Let them decide what they wanna do with it! I'd get one big purchase for all my aunts, uncles and cousins and close friends. I'd buy some praise garments for all the members of my dance ministry! (Lord knows we need some new garments!) I'd open my bakery as well as my dessert restaurant but hire enough people to work ONLY when I want! I'd open a center for young girls that would educate and empower them in a variety of areas! I would either set up a scholarship fund...or just find a few kids that wanna go to school but can't afford it (and maybe one or two "return to school" adults) and pay for it! After all that...because hey, we are talking a BILLION dollars, I'd buy myself a new wardrobe with new shoes, accessories and makeup to complete it!


6. People I want to know more about:
I'm not sure just yet...perhaps that why I didn't tag anybody! In general, if I wanna know about someone (celebs and whatever) I just Google 'em! LOL!

Friday, May 23, 2008

Are Christians crazy?

Now...before anyone tries to get fiesty, I am NOT posing this as a "let's discuss the validity of the statement" type thing!! I just called the post by this title because I figured it would be a good attention-grabber. It should probably say "is this why people think Christians are crazy?". I had a thought similar to that this afternoon when I was telling a friend (shout-outs to Ty!!) about how I found some very cute shoes for a ridiculously low price!! See, I am going to be in a fashion show on Sunday. (Shameless plug: "A Different World" featuring Sunshine Models on Wheels AND Signature Ink's newest models--that includes me!!) I had to find some runway shoes (what I have is cute, but...) and a few items of clothing. Well, I hate to shop so this morning during my morning prayer, I asked God to lead me to exactly where I need to go for the shoes and clothes!! This is part one of the "are Christians crazy?" Then, this afternoon, on my lunch break, I felt the need to go to Shoe City on Woodlawn Drive. (It's right near my job!) I've only been in there one time before because I don't really shop in Shoe City. I said to myself, "Well, let me just go real quick"! Well, when I drove up, I saw a sign that they are going to have outlet prices from now on! Wow! Ok, so I was thinking, "this may be good!" Well, to make the story as short as possible, I got three pairs of shoes for $14.21! I told my friend and she said "that's a tithing special!" And then I told her that I had listened to the Holy Spirit about going in there. Then I said, "and I'm waiting to hear where I should go for the soldier scene". This is part two of the "are Christians crazy?". As soon as I typed the email, I thought to myself, "that's a little crazy! If I were anyone else, and especially someone who wasn't a Christian, I'd think that was nuts!" I mean, the idea of asking God about shopping?! Now, I realize I never write any posts that would really even indicate that I know Jesus, but the reality is that I am in, what I consider to me, close relationship with Him. I realize it DOES seem crazy to live the Christian life sometimes...to be dependent on God for everything, from the "big" stuff down to the "little" things like where to shop, or even sometimes, where to park, but that's what I'm starting to do more and more. That's the kind of life I want to lead!! Some people would say that God isn't concerned with that kind of thing..."where should I go to the market? What job should I take?" but the reality is, God wants to talk to us about everything. So, I'm learning to talk to Him more...and to listen more. And just for the record, NO, I don't think Christians are crazy! We just lead a different kinda life! (Or, at least, we SHOULD!)

Friday, May 09, 2008

Six Quirky Facts about me

So, I have been tagged by my friend Toya (Life of a Ladybug--check her out!) and it took me a while (basically, to narrow it DOWN to six! I think I'm pretty quirky!)

1. I have pretty good command of my toes/feet! If something drops on the floor and I can't reach...I'll pick it up with one of my feet!

2. (I've mentioned this one before) I talk to myself...a lot. Conversations, notes to self or just whatever! I do it everywhere, too! At the market, walking in to work, wherever. Should I be worried about this? I don't think so!

3. Although I love to cook and bake, I'm too scared to open those cans that biscuits and cinnamon rolls come in. I hate the "pop" sound they make! I ask my mother or someone else around to open it. My mom asked, "what will you do when you get married?" I said, "Ask my husband! I'll cook dinner...his one job will be to OPEN the biscuits!"

4. In my cubicle at work, I don't have any personal items. I don't have any pictures or cute little sayings, posters or calendars. You'd come into my cube and wonder if it's my first, or perhaps last, day!

5. I may have a touch of OCD. My friend Tyesha was the first to point this out. I like to wash my hands, but when I cook, it's almost obsessive! Also, I must always be "balanced" whenever I do things! For example, if I try a shoe on my left foot, I feel like I "must" try on a right shoe, too! Otherwise, I feel "off". I just realized, even when I wear jewelry, if I have something on one wrist/hand/arm, I have to have something on the other one, too. It's very rare to see me with a ring and bracelet on one hand/wrist and nothing on the other!

6. One of my favorite "chores"--I don't know what else to call it--is ironing! People who know me very closely know that; it's something I really love and am good at! LOL! I volunteer to iron people's things, especially if I think they can't do a good job themselves!

Thursday, February 21, 2008

I'm a model!!

Well, sorta! Well, I'm more like a "model in training!" No, seriously, I haven't yet signed on with the agency, but I'm taking classes to prepare me to be signed with Signature Ink Modeling Agency! (Here's the website if you are interested: Signature Ink Models). I'm very pumped about it!! Our classes started on January 5.

Here's exactly what happened: My friend Tyesha, who is tall and beautiful and very "model-esque", was already going to sign with Signature and was in a fashion show in November with the agency. I went to support her and on a trip to the ladies room--during which I got sidetracked and ended up buying one of the most beautiful and CHUNKY rings I've ever seen and owned!--I saw a flier for the agency's open call that upcoming Friday. I went to the agency's website and MySpace pages and saw that she has a full-figured division and that she has people who aren't the typical "fashion/model industry standard" but they all have that something! So, I decided "This is the year of no more fears!" and decided to go on the open call. (I had previously decided that I wanted to do some full-figured modeling, but kept chickening out, after getting rejected for the Mo'Nique's F.A.T. chance show--they wanted to make people over. I thought they'd want fly and confident full-figured women! I was wrong.)

So, I contacted the director (she's a faithful member of my church so I knew she wouldn't have me doing nothin' CRAZY) to find out what I needed. I ended up taking a black & white picture of myself from one of my trips to Vegas--it was seriously all I had! The color ink on my printer was gone!--with me to give her! I had to do an interview, and then walk & pose! I was SO nervous!! Wow! But I did it!! I was so proud!! And I was even happier when I got that call to come back for a second interview--with the director herself! Now, before all this, I knew her name and spoke, but we'd never had conversation! She told me that she was interested in signing me! YAY!!

So, fast forward to the present and here we are, almost finished our 2nd month of class! (Class, for adults, is 6 months, unless you have previous experience! Her kids division train for 12 months.) I did my first photoshoot two weeks ago. It was fantastic! (As soon as I learn about rights and all that regarding the photos, I'll post one!) It was fun and a pure adrenaline rush, but it was also hard work. I mean, I don't normally just "smile for the camera" or at hardly smile at all, but she kept telling me that my natural smile needs to come out more!

And even funnier still is the fact that, although I'm a full-figured model, I've got to be more conscious than ever about my weight, what I eat (and drink!! Gotta prevent those breakouts!) and how often I exercise and all that!! I'll also have to probably change some things about my look (my hair or perhaps the way I dress) but I look forward to the changes!! I mean, I figure I can only get fly-er from here on out!! So as such, I've tried to also step it up in the general looks/appearance department! I don't wanna be out at dinner with friends, have someone overhear me say "yeah, so my modeling agent..." and the person looks at my outfit and burst into laughter!

So...YAY, I'm a model!!

Friday, February 15, 2008

Happy President's Day!

Ok, so I'm not REALLY that pumped about Abe Lincoln & uh...all the other presidents whose birthdays we celebrate on that day, I'm moreso happy for a day off!! Don't get me wrong. I appreciate the fact that Abraham Lincoln was born and did great things as a president--though not so QUITE what everyone thinks!--but on Monday, I doubt that I'll be little more than resting up for the rest of the week! Uh...now I feel guilty having said that...any ideas on how I could "celebrate" Monday? (And, NO, a President's day sale does NOT count!)

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Sandals...in January?

Ok, so I'm not quite wearing sandals to work, but I don't have on stockings!! This SHOULD NOT be OK!! It's January, for goodness' sake! I just checked the weather; it's 66 degrees outside!! What in the world is going on?! It's hard to dress in this kind of weather because you wanna take it back to spring/summer clothes but you also think, in the back of your mind, that you don't wanna get sick...so you try to dress as appopriately as possible!! Does this mean that our summer is going to be blistering hot? I hope not!!